Deepbluesix’s Weblog

So the second to last post I wrote, which, granted, was over 2 months ago (oops) is ironic and kinda painful looking back on it. That week ended up being the worst of my summer. Not because my campers and co weren’t amazing, because I love Jonathan dearly and that group was so much fun and so so so good to each other. But I didn’t want to be at camp that week. I slept but never rested. My mom got super pissed at me. I had to send one of the best campers home because his dad died. I was so excited about that week, but it exhausted me. Things aren’t what you expect them to be, I guess.
But I wouldn’t change it.

This semester is ridiculous. I hate trying to play catch up with all of my work…I don’t want to do it anyway but the more I put it off, the more I’m sure I’m gonna fail my life. I need to figure out what I’m doing for the rest of my life, or at least for the next 2 (maybe 3, bah) years. Right now I’m guessing psych major…but that is the cop-out-iest of all majors (I could be a Soc or SWAG major I guess…not that they’re not legitimate. but really?) so I have to take a second major. For me. For pride. It keeps changing though…I thought environmental science cause hey, I like the environment right? Well sure, but mainly, I like the outdoors. I don’t like science or numbers or chemistry or 4 hour labs. I should’ve gone to a school that offered the major I’ve wanted all along anyway…but not a lot of (legitimate) colleges offer outdoor education. SEGUE! So no I’m thinking Curry School. I could be a teacher, right? Starting a major in my third year suckssss…but it can be done, I guess. But there goes the Middle Eastern Studies minor I had my eye on.
Yeah, I was for real gonna major in Psych and Envi Sci and minor in Middle Eastern Studies. I’d psychoanalyze environmentalists in Lebanon or something, I guess. Who knows.
Maybe I’ll be a early childhood special ed teacher…which requires a psych major. Justify my slackiness. Also, rewarding much?
Stream of consciousness figuring out my life for the win.
Also, I need a job.
Also, to stop wasting time and read some of the hundreds of pages I’m behind on. Though I did do some Arabic…which is so fucking hard! Why was that ever a good idea! More importantly, why is it a good idea to start the 201 students in the middle of the standard textbook that we didn’t use? I understand it’s basically the standard by which all elementary Arabic is taught, but um that whole first half of the book? I don’t know any of it beyond the basic concepts. That makes consequent chapters a real breeze.

Bitching aside, a moment of zen:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2swEcsZTxPc

I hate having an anus up my rectum.
Brief diatribe before I work:
Brother Micah is indeed a madman. Not necessarily for his (eXtreme) “faith” and ideals, but because he thinks his methods of preaching reach anybody. In my experience, fire and brimstone doesn’t really inspire the flock. Even assuming a Christian viewpoint, what he says is totally out of line. He’s free from sin, apparently, because he repented once. Best (meaning soundest, not most entertaining, because there were tons of those) comebacks: “Do you shower one day and get dirty the next?” But despite his huge entertainment value, I wish people in general (not just here, since I think he’s actually gone now) would just stop listening. While it’s both fun and infuriating to try to engage in some kind of debate with the man, he’s not changing our minds and we’re not changing his. His “It’s not okay to be gay” song might be a smash hit (I hope I hope I hope) but it’s loud and obnoxious and a disturbance of the peace. That I actively engaged in for like 3 days. Whatever.

WORKKKK.